The Problem of Evil and Cosmic Fatalism has disturbed me since my teenage years. I have said this many times in this blog as well as in my author website. I was heavily influenced by Roger Penrose and his ideas since my teenage years.
The Penrose-Lucas argument, The Andromeda Paradox, Twistor Theory, Conformal Cyclic Cosmology, Orchestrated Objective Reduction, The Penrose Tiling Problem, Fine Tuning problem, Quantum Mechanics is Incomplete, Quantum Measurement problem etc., all these ideas of Roger Penrose had a strong influence on me, in fact I can safely say that it was Sir Roger Penrose, the Nobel Prize laureate who initiated me into the Pagan Mystery Religions (I know Sir Roger Penrose is an agnostic atheist). What I mean by this is that if Roger Penrose had not existed then I would have remained as an atheist through out my life and I would have never doubted scientific realism and positivism. Without these ideas of Roger Penrose I would never have the motivation in me to look into an alternative epistemology.
Now on the religious side the scholar who influence me a lot was Devudu Narasimha Shastry his two works MahaBrahmana and MahaDarshana introduced me to the esoteric secrets hidden in the Upanishads and the Vedas. Apart from him, Emperor Julian (Hymn To King Helios-Aion-Mithras) and Saint Paul of Tarsus (Pauline Letters) have also influenced me strongly. I was not aware of Valentinus and Valentinianism at that time of my teenage and I must say along with these charismatic figures, the text, Mithras Liturgy from the Great Magical Papyrus of Paris also had a great impact on me.
Even after reading all these religious works, I would not have made the leap of faith into Esotericism if I was unaware of Roger Penrose and his works. This is the reason I say it was Roger Penrose who initiated me into Platonic Realism and the Pagan Mystery religions. He made me doubt the current scientific paradigm at that time.
I must also admit that Hubert Yockey, the physicist and information theorist who believed that the origin of life is an unsolvable problem also had a very strong influence on me. Remember Hubert Yockey never doubted Darwin's theory of Evolution and cumulative natural selection, he always insisted that once life originated on earth it was quite natural for evolution to kick in but he raised serious concerns on the natural origin of life and the error correcting mechanisms put in place in the replication and translation of genome and the genetic code.
The below article that I submitted to my College Magazine called Disha was published in the year 2009, more than 17 years ago. As you can see the topics which I mainly discuss in this blog hasn't changed much over the years, however my views on these topics have evolved over time but the theme of my research remains the same. This is the strong evidence of how God was planting these ideas in me since my teenage.
Now after 17 years since I wrote that article, when I look back, I have evolved into Valentinianism (Jesus Christ), Orphism (Chronus and Ananke), Vedism (a strong adherent of God Savitr and Niyati (Rta)), Zoroastrianism, and Mithraism.
Do you know where I am finally resting now? I am finally resting my life in fatalistic Zurvanism, in Zurvan, The God of Infinite Time. This doesn't negate or contradict my beliefs, I can very well defend and show, how all the above religions which I believe in are actually in support of Zurvan and Zurvanism.
It is Zurvan and Zurvanism alone which clearly solves the Problem of Evil and Cosmic Fatalism, the two main concepts which has disturbed me since my teenage years. I strongly believe, fatalistic Zurvanism and Zurvan, The God of Infinite Time will provide the Final Restoration and Immortality to Homo Sapiens. I am officially converting my faith into fatalistic Zurvanism. R.C. Zaehner was right, Zurvanism was an ancient proto Indo-Iranian-European religion predating all other religions.
