I was in a Long distance friendship five years ago and very early in the friendship I wanted to make her as mine as I liked her a lot. So I confessed to her clearly that I will never ever admire a girl in my whole life except her but she was neither interested to take this relationship onto our real life and nor she was interested in receiving my love at that time but she wanted me to just remain as a friend with her.
I prioritized her feelings first over mine because I used to see my happiness in her joys. I very well know the difference between a stranger, a friend, a best friend, a girl friend, a lover and a soul mate and will treat them accordingly by changing my roles for each relationship respectively.
Since she just wanted me to remain as a friend I did not try to persuade her to be my lover since I knew that path would take us to a dead end and would end our friendship. As time passed our intimacy grew and I was being in love with her but when I proposed to her I came to realize to the fact that she doesn't feel the same way as I felt for her and in fact she had abhorred hatred towards me all because of the reason that I did not persuaded her to be my lover.
I was accused of being a sadist, a selfish leech that I was only with her because it was meeting my needs and many more painful words like that. If I had been just a jerk and if I had cared for my own feelings in the beginning of our friendship and if I had walked out of our relationship at that time then I would have end up less hurtful. She was stabbing my heart but didn't even had the patience to listen to my side of the story. I had the choice to remain as a friend with her at the beginning of our relationship even though I loved her because I was not being in love with her at that time. I made that choice because God had ordained it that way and moreover at that time she needed my friendship more than my love for her therefore I am angry towards God and not towards her but this is an important lesson what I have learned from this incident.
Modern girls who lack spirituality doesn't deserve so much love especially when your definition of love is in accordance with Sonnet 116. It is far better to be single or remain as a celibate like Saint Paul rather than end up being a sinner with a choked up unrequited love.